what to do.

I've been stuck between two things. Up until a January, I had this mindset that people aren't here forever. People leave. With that, I didn't allow myself to depend on others and that it was best to only look after myself and do what's best for me. By thinking that way, I was reckless and didn't care for when I hurt someone. I never allowed myself to picture anyone else in my future. It was just me.

But now, that chain is broke. I don't want to go back to being that cold-hearted bitch, but at the same time, I feel like I should. Although, I don't want to miss out on meeting someone special. But I don't want to go through this again.

Do I meet and try to connect with as many or do I go on about my life and just not care.

Both will leave me in confusion. Though what's the point. I can't stop anyone from leaving. No matter how much I care for them or love them. I won't allow anyone to stay. I just let them leave, because it's their life.

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