My Examined Life

Commitment is scary. For me and for many other people. I think a lot of us have different reasons why we fear commitment. Myself, it's, well, commitment is basically abstract. It's unknown. When you decide to commit to someone, you're committing into something that involves sharing your life. It involves them sharing their lives. It means that you are committed to staying with this person that can upset you and they will witness it. The will see you for who you are, that is if you are truly committed. And yes, it is possible to break away from being committed to this person, but where do you cross the line. Do you draw it when they hurt your feelings? When you argue or have a disagreement? I believe many will say no to those things, that it has to be more disruptive than it just being an inconvenience to an individual. Perhaps betrayal? Is that where you would draw the line. Well, think about this, what can be the betrayal? The question a lot of us would ask when committed ...

I think that it's typical for a female in any type of romantic relationship, would want their partner to be able to share with them their secrets, thoughts, and feelings. Things about their upbringings and anything else that is going on through their mind. Right? It takes away that mystery of wondering, of questions like what's going on in their head?  You see, that's what I thought. And I enjoyed it for the months of understanding my boyfriend and it's a wonderful feeling when my boyfriend confines in me. From the moment we first got together, he even told me that he is, for some reason, most comfortable around me. I listened to him. I enjoyed listening to him and his stories of why and how he's become the person he is today. His troubles and struggles. I helped the most that I can, but making sure that I don't make decisions for him. Because I truly believe that ultimately, it is up to him. My boyfriend and I have been together for about five months now. I...

I've been writing in a journal for some time. I say that writing in a journal to organize my thoughts to keep a record of my actions and decisions as I go along in my life. It has also helped with my memory. However, I have decided that I want to allow myself to feel exposed and more vulnerable. Perhaps, my course in life will be different if I write to the public. I'm not sure how many people will view this or who. Though, I want to put my life out there and my experience.  I had a blog once when I was in high school. It was for a short period of time. Maybe it helped. I didn't keep in on for long, because I would eventually just forget about it. But I have given up on many goals and this is something that I want to continue. I'll say a little about myself as of today. I'm 19 years old and currently a student at a small private university in Virginia. I was born and raised in Florida. Those are very different places, I know. Currently, I'm in a relations...